The Divine Claudius
It was said
I was begotten by Nature
but unfinished
like an abandoned sculpture
a sketch
the damaged fragment of a poem
for years I played the half-wit
idiots live more safely
I calmly put up with insults
if I planted all the pits
thrown into my face an olive grove would spring up
a vast oasis of palms
I received a many-sided education
Livy the rhetoricians philosophers
I spoke Greek like an Athenian
although Plato I recalled
only in the lying position
I completed my studies
in dockside taverns and brothels
those unwritten dictionaries of vulgar Latin
bottomless treasuries of crime and lust
after the murder of Caligula
I hid behind a curtain
they dragged me out by force
I didn't manage to adopt an intelligent expression
when they threw at my feet the world
ridiculous and flat
from then on I became the most diligent
emperor in universal history
a Hercules of bureaucracy
I recall with pride my liberal law
giving permission to let out
sounds of the belly during feasts
I deny the charge of cruelty often made against me
in reality I was only absentminded
on the day of Messalina's violent murder--
the poor thing was killed I admit on my orders--
I asked during the banquet--Why hasn't Madame come
a deathly silence answered me
really I forgot
sometimes it would happen I invited
the dead to a game of dice
I punished failure to attend with a fine
overburdened by so many labors
I might have made mistakes in details
it seems
I ordered thirty-five senators
and the cavalrymen of some three centurions
to be executed
well what of it
a bit less purple
fewer gold rings
on the other hand--
and this isn't a trifle--
more room in the theater
no one wanted to understand
that the goal of these operations was sublime
I longed to make death familiar to people
to dull its edge
bring it down to the banal everyday dimension
of a slight depression or runny nose
and here is the proof
of my delicacy of feeling
I removed the statue of gentle Augustus
from the square of executions
so the sensitive marble
wouldn't hear the roars of the condemned
my nights were devoted to study
I wrote the history of the Etruscans
a history of Carthage
a bagatelle about Saturn
a contribution to the theory of games
and a treatise on the venom of serpents
it was I who saved Ostia
from the invasion of sand
I drained swamps
built aqueducts
since then it has become easier in Rome
to wash away blood
I expanded the frontiers of the empire
by Brittany Mauretania
and if I recall correctly Thrace
my death was caused by my wife Agrippina
and an uncontrollable passion for boletus
mushrooms--the essence of the forest--became the essence of death
descendants--remember with proper respect and honor
at least one merit of the divine Claudius
I added new signs and sounds to our alphabet
expanded the limits of speech that is the limits of freedom
the letters I discovered--beloved daughters--Digamma and Antisigma
led my shadow
as I pursued the path with tottering steps to the dark land of Orkus
Translated by Czeslaw Milosz
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